Stuck at a crossroads
There comes a time in life when every person reaches a crossroads. Sometimes it’s at work, other times it’s at home. Unfortunately I find myself at such a place in several areas of my life, and there are no good choices.
Throughout my life I’ve always had a plan. I even had a plan “B”, “C”, and “D”. I developed that coping skill back in college. I call it the “What’s the worst that can happen?” technique. When I was really worried about something I would ask myself, “What’s the worst that can happen?” I would then make a list (either mental or written depending how freaked out I was) and come up with a plan for each scenario. Once I had a plan for each eventuality I felt more secure. It’s a strategy that has served me well through the years. Usually when I break down the possible outcomes and address each one I end up feeling more confident. Strangely that doesn’t seem to be the case this time.
Until now I have always known what I was doing. I had a career path; a clear idea of where I wanted to go. But what happens when you reach the point where you no longer want to travel this path? I was so focused on my path that it was practically a straight line. The problem is that my resume has become so specialized that I don’t seem to be qualified for anything but what I already do.
My personal life has not been such a linear course. That path has been filled with so many twists and turns that sometimes I’ve needed breadcrumbs to find my way. But no matter how used to direction changes I become, it still jars the stomach when I hit a curve.
I’ve always made the best decisions I could based on the information I had at the time. What I have to figure out now is what to do when I find myself at a crossroads and…
Nothing seems like a good idea at the time.