Stuck at a crossroads
There comes a time in life when every person reaches a crossroads. Sometimes it’s at work, other times it’s at home. Unfortunately I find myself at such a place in several areas of my life, and there are no good choices.
Throughout my life I’ve always had a plan. I even had a plan “B”, “C”, and “D”. I developed that coping skill back in college. I call it the “What’s the worst that can happen?” technique. When I was really worried about something I would ask myself, “What’s the worst that can happen?” I would then make a list (either mental or written depending how freaked out I was) and come up with a plan for each scenario. Once I had a plan for each eventuality I felt more secure. It’s a strategy that has served me well through the years. Usually when I break down the possible outcomes and address each one I end up feeling more confident. Strangely that doesn’t seem to be the case this time.
Until now I have always known what I was doing. I had a career path; a clear idea of where I wanted to go. But what happens when you reach the point where you no longer want to travel this path? I was so focused on my path that it was practically a straight line. The problem is that my resume has become so specialized that I don’t seem to be qualified for anything but what I already do.
My personal life has not been such a linear course. That path has been filled with so many twists and turns that sometimes I’ve needed breadcrumbs to find my way. But no matter how used to direction changes I become, it still jars the stomach when I hit a curve.
I’ve always made the best decisions I could based on the information I had at the time. What I have to figure out now is what to do when I find myself at a crossroads and…
Nothing seems like a good idea at the time.
Beth, this was really excellent. Very though provoking. You know you always have family do matter what decisions you make.
This makes me sad. Do we need to talk?